30 Days? Are you kidding me?

Adam often has meetings on Tuesday nights. After Max goes to bed, I'm left all alone. I found that The Biggest Loser is on from 8-10pm on Tuesday nights and I got hooked. Last season was awesome and so far this season is even better.

Also, before I got pregnant with Max you may remember that I was getting into 5Ks and spent quite a bit of time on the treadmill. In fact, I was looking at some pictures the other day from Andi's wedding and darn I looked awesome. Leave it to pregnancy and my love of Sonic Smoothies during that time to make me forget the great feeling that comes with a workout.

I dropped the number weight pretty quickly after Max was born. I've hovered right near the number I was when I got pregnant. But if you've had a baby, you know that after does not look the same as before even if the numbers are pretty close. I was always concerned with my lower half (I've never been "skinny"), you know a little junk in the trunk. But I've never had to worry about the middle and top too.

I also took for granted all the muscle mass I used to have. I laughed in the face of sit ups- now I can't even do one.... Where did my core go? I think I pushed it out of me when I pushed out Max. Pilates, you used to be my friend. I can handle being a little "softer" I think that's one of the battle scars of being a mom and one I would wear proudly. I just want my clothes to fit a little better (by that I mean I want my clothes to fit me again).


So today I completed Day 1 of 30 Day Shred. I've put myself in the hands of Jillian Michaels and man did it kick my butt! I realize I'm the perfect candidate for this, so we'll go with it and see where 30 days takes me.

I'm baring all because it's worse for me to fail in front of the internet and people who read my blog, than for me to fail alone in my living room. And also because admitting you have a problem is the first step in dealing with it. I've done it before and I can do it again. I will get back into shape. After all Max will be running soon and I'll need to keep up.

I've also taken to reading Bodies in Motivation - a website started by Linda of All and Sundry who I've followed for years now in the blog world. It's still in it's beginning stages, but I like where it's going. It's more about MOTIVATION than anything and that's what I need. Encouragement. Encouragement to not want to punch Jillian Michaels in the face by the end of the 20 minutes .... Did I mention that so far 30 Day Shred is kicking my behind?